I don't understand why I expect myself to be so together and on top of it all. There are just days when the weight of it all comes crashing down and today, for me, was one of those days. And so I stayed in the clothes I threw on first thing this morning, I sipped tea and read my book while the girls played in the tent I made for them out of quilts and chairs. I did get some work done around the house, but it felt so freeing to know that it's okay to be sad and to not hide my emotions behind my self-expectations. It's freeing to bring my emotions to God and know that I didn't have to move on quickly to the next item on my list, I can embrace this sadness and not be ashamed of my weakness.
For the LORD comforts Zion;
he comforts all her waste places
and makes her wilderness like Eden,
her desert like the garden of the LORD;
joy and gladness will be found in her,
thanksgiving and the voice of song.